Hi everyone…mai apne life ka apni first crush share karna chahti hu…mail 10th std tak bahut hi seedhi saadhi thi…ladko sabse baatein, jhagda sab karti thi but kabhi kisi ke liye koi feeling nahi aaya. Aur jab bhi mai kisi ladke ko dekhti to mai unhe bhaiya hi bulati jiske liye mai apni frnd se daat bhi sunti thi. Jab mai 11th std me aayi, ek din mai mandir jaa rahi thi tab maine ek ladke ko dekha who was really awesome. Tab pata nai mujhe kya ho gaya tha mai use palat kar fir se dekhi par wo kamina tab tak nikal chuka tha. Next day I saw him again at bus stand. Mai use jab tak palat kar dekhti tab tak uski bus aa gayi thi. kuch dino ke baad mere street me ek movie ki shooting chal rahi thi… Aur us din wo banda bhi wo shooting dekhne aaya tha. Us din maine pehli baar use bahut nazdik se dekhi. He was in white t.shirt with with white glass. Mujhe uske baare me kuch bhi nahi patat tha isliye maine uska naam white shirt rakh diya tha. Frnds mai apni life me pehli baar kisi bande ko itna pyar se dekha. And from next day i started seeing him everyday at ma bus stand. Mai jab bhi use dekhti thi mai ek dam dar jaati thi. Mear heart beat hone lagta tha. I was like what to tell mujhe kuch bhi samajh nahi aata tha. Maine apne frnds se bhi share kiya aur mere frnds mujhe bolne lage ki ab tu bhi bigad gayi. Mai sirf us bande se ek baar baat karna chahti thi aur use batana chahti thi ki wo kitna cute hai and i wanted to tell him that I have so much crush on him. Mai ye baat maine apne frnds, didi, bhaiya, chachi sabse share kiya. Frnds mujhe tab tak uske baare me kuch bhi nahi pata tha. Phir ek din maine use ek ladke ke saath baat karte hue dekha jis ladke ko mai jaanti thi aur wo ladka mere gali me hi rahta tha. Mai bahut hi sochti thi ki use dekhungi to use dekh kar smile karungi lekin jab hi wo mujhe dekhta tha mai ek bahut nervous ho jati thi. Maine us ladke se us white shirt k baare me sab kuch puch liya aur ek din maine uska number bhi le liya..Aur mujhe tab pata chala ki wo muslim hai aur mai hindu thi.Still i wanted to talk to him. Mai starting me use msg karne k liye bahut darti thi lekin mujhe use kaise bhi batana tha ki he s really handsome. Aur ek din maine use msg kiya.. shock ho Jab mai college first year me gayi mai use boli ki mujhe uspe bahut hi crush hai tab wo bahut hi shock ho gaya and he was not believing. Use ye lagta tha ki meri frnd use like karti thi. Use bahut hi shock hua aur wo bola mujhe ki wo bahut lucky hai ki koi ladki use itna appreciate kar rahi hai. Aur wo humesha mujhse yehi puchta tha ki mujhe uspe itna crush kyu aaya lekin iska answer to mujhe bhi nahi pata tha. Mai usse thode din hi baat ki kyouki mujhe pata tha agar mai isse aage badhi to shayad future me accha nahi hoga aur bas mai wahi pe uska frndshp quit kar di. But I am happy at last mai usse apni feeling to share kar paayi…
